SakikoNakahara

I don't know why it is, that almost everyone whom I speak to gets me totally wrong... :D It was just yesterday I went to the hairdresser, to get myself a new haircut. Though I've curls I begged: "Please, don't make me look either like the lion's king nor like an 80's girl." She told me not to worry and started cutting. Well I don't look like Simba neither like an 80's bitch, but shit, I look like Eva Braun now. How the fuck?? Not 80's, but 40's?? I mean seriously..?? Everybody at the subway station stared at me, damn...I wish I wouldn't live in Austria...elsewhere nobody would have noticed -.-

Alright...I know nobody will ever read this, but still, I've to write this, somewhere and Facebook isn't the best when you write something very personal...xD I just found out that I'm gay...no, of course I knew it somehow before..but...shit...I told my mother...she didn't believe me...of course not, how would she?? She's 100% straight, I mean, she gave birth to me.. xD I bet she regreted it a few minutes later either way, but...yeah...I still can't accept it...if there's a chance that some of your might have advices, even if you don't read this...what you don't...I bet.. :D ... just tell me...I really feel horrible about it and I don't have

It's alway the same with me...I just CAN'T talk to other poeple...sure to friends and family but when somebody that I don't know starts talking to me (doesn't matter what gender or age, pretty, ugly…) I can't push myself to answer...I've no idea why's that... It's just horrible...I ran nearly three hours through a shop, until I asked if the produkt I was searching for was even for sale there!! Fuck it!!